DAY 18

Let's be who we were made to be in 2011!! not what the world wants us to be.. be our unique individual selves... let's go against the flow... 2011...the year for a Revolution!

DAY 17

God is love in it's purest form, He is the Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit. He is compassionate, joyful, humorous, lovely, and even more then we could ever know. I've been trying to write my encounters with Jesus down, but I've been having trouble putting words to the different experiences that we have shared together, like any relationship we've had our times of hardships, suffering, laughter, romance, forgiveness, teasing and dancing. I've also had my times of distance from Him, rebellion, doubting and non believing. Like any relationship we depend on each other, and I guess that's one huge thing that scares people away from a relationship with Him. As humans we desire independence and power, I don't know about you, but I prefer to live my day, with the knowing I have someone to lean on especially when the time gets tough. God is my creator, I am His creation... God is my Father, and I am His daughter. God my perfect Father who will always and infinitely love me.

This is how I've experienced Him...... When I've been scared, and I call upon His name, Jesus is there, His gentle hand touching my back, and filling me with peace.... When I am weak or lack courage, I call upon His name, and He fills me with the Holy Spirit, I ask for His strength, and He fills me up. When I feel ugly, He sends one of His beloved children to tell me I'm pretty, When I am in complete desperation He walks with me hand in hand. He is my encouragement when I feel discouraged. And when I'm lost, He helps me find my way back home. I am telling you  this because I know God loves you just as much as He loves me. Our God who created everything, who form the stars and the heavenly hosts, who told Noah to build an ark, who parted the Red Sea for Moses. He loves YOU He loves ME. He wants to get to know you, He wants you to know your worth, He wants you to desire Him and love Him back... A life with Jesus... what do you have to lose!?

DAY 16

All I want to share with you today is!

So rain isn't all too bad to take photos in, as long as you have an umbrella :)

'With so many witnesses in a great cloud on every side of us, we too, then should throw off everything that hinders us, especially the sin that clings so easily, and keep running steadily in the race we have started. Let us not lose sight of Jesus, who leads us in our faith and brings it to perfection; for the sake of the joy which was still in the future, he endured the cross, disregarding the shamefulness of it, and from now on has taken his place at the right of God's throne. Think of the way he stood such opposition from sinners and then you will not give up for want of courage. In the fight against sin, you have not yet had to keep fighting to the point of death." Hebrews 12:1-4

DAY 15

Today went wayyyyyy to fast.......... and its because I am waiting for something... it always goes fast when I'm waiting. Tomorrow is gunna be a big day! photo shoot, banking, calling people etc............ a little nervous, but I'll try to look at it like this.... I love taking photos!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and I am calling people that I miss, and will be nice to hear their voices....

Not much to write, as I want to get back to my book "Redeeming love" I recommend it, It's based on the Book of Hosea!!! okie dae GOOD NIGHT :D

DAY 14

I would like to share with you all a song I wrote in the middle of the year sometime.. it's the original that I wrote, but it was re written so music could go to it.
Before I copy and paste it I want to share with you also, what I was going through and how I can to be inspired to write this song.

I'm not sure how it happened, but I can remember now why it happened... I asked God for the gift of faith, this was my theme for the year, as it seems. I would ask Him alot, over and over, and as you all know, ask and it will be given. But not without challenges, pain, suffering, tests, well for me anyway. I don't know how God works in everyone elses life, but for mine it's all about chucking me in the deep end. So on with it, of course me being me and I easily get distracted, confused or just forget, I forgot what I asked for from God, silly me, so when my trials did come, I was angry, I felt rejected and very alone, I'd ironically lost all my faith, and I started slipping back into my old worldly self, tempted (I'm not saying God tempted me, but because I had let down my guard and lost all motivation to pray through it, the thief snuck in and stole from me and lied to me) I felt like I was becoming numb with the worldly things that I was doing, becoming unaware of sin. I can remember also pleading to God to prove that He was real and that if He didn't do certain things for me then He wasn't. What really broke me, was I had a horrible day at work, I was stressed, angry, depressed, everyone was yelling at me, and to top it off I had to catch a bus home, walk 20 minutes from the bus stop and I'm pretty sure it was raining... when I got to the door, I couldn't find the key.. no one was home. I completely broke down. I screamed at God where are you!!! and begged Him to magically open the door or something, again trying to get Him to prove to me that He was real! but nothing happened, I cried and cried. I was jealous of other Christians, and how they got things they asked for (but completely different things) One last time I asked Him "where are you" and before me I saw, my shoe print, and next to it a footprint, on the tiles made from water. again the thief came, and told me that it was just an old print from 7 hours before. I believed the thief, and ignored that gentle fire in my heart that came when I saw the prints.

So now my saving grace Jesus Christ... because I had gone so far backwards, I decided to go out with my friends again, drinking and partying, taking some things too far.. it was a horrible night.. I ended up in the bathroom crying, and absolutely pouring my heart out to Jesus to save me from what I'd become... and I heard a gentle voice saying "call mum" so I did, she came and picked me up, not angry, but loving me, and being happy that I had the maturity to call. She talked to me about it and she said to me "Stop looking back" it hit me so hard! I had looked back for something to fill the hole that had appeared again. My sister told me a few weeks later, that she had a dream about me, in a church, in a white dress, looking back at her and not at my groom. and I told her about what I had been through, and she asked me if I had asked for faith from God... and it all made sense... It wasn't easy from there on end and it's still not... I find it easier now to find strength in Jesus Christ to resist temptation.. and my faith has grown through prayer... and writing this song also helped me come back to Him, as it felt like I was communicating with Him, and Him to me.... Guys it's a tough world out there.. and there is no such thing as the perfect christian, it's incredibly hard for all of us. You've just gotta have faith, and remember you asked God for it.. and walk through your challenges with Jesus Christ, continually seeking Him as your strength.

Is life a game to you,

Choosing favourites and leaving the rest.

What if my heart is pounding after you,

And yet you ignore me..or is the thump thump thump blocking out your voice.

I keep answering the door, as it mocks me

But no one is ever there...

I keep knocking and knocking, but no one is listening to my noise..

Is it fair that you choose one, but not the other,

Is it fair that you don’t talk back.

I would follow you any where you go, but your footprints are washed away

With the gray mysterious fog... I cry out to you, but the thunder interrupts

Me everytime i try... i surrender and take down my wall.. but the advantage is lost.

I will seek and seek again.. but how much longer can i go.

Where are you, are you really there, or is my efforts not enough.

Have i gone too far, and you’ve just given up..

Will you ever fight for me personally, like i’ve heard you do before.

Or have i ashamed you in some way.

People talk about you all the time, i hear them say things. I am sinking

I don’t think i can do this anymore,

I am slipping away, i can give you another chance,

I will surrender one last time, can you fill me up

Can you be there for me, be so real too me

I would follow you any where you go, but your footprints are washed away

With the gray mysterious fog... I cry out to you, but the thunder interrupts

Me everytime i try... i surrender and take down my wall.. but the advantage is lost.

I will seek and seek again.. but how much longer can i go.

This is it one last time, Hear me say, i am yours!!

I am yours.. hear my heart as it beats for you,

Can you please show me the life i am missing, Oh please

I would follow you any where you go, but your footprints are washed away

With the gray mysterious fog... I cry out to you, but the thunder interrupts

Me everytime i try... i surrender and take down my wall.. but the advantage is lost.

I will seek and seek again.. but how much longer can i go.

I would follow you any where you go, but your footprints are washed away

With the gray mysterious fog... I cry out to you, but the thunder interrupts

Me everytime i try... i surrender and take down my wall.. but the advantage is lost.

I will seek and seek again.. but how much longer can i go.

DAY 13

I shopped alllll day!!! 6 and a half hours! it was brilliant. Chaotic, buzzing, caffeinated, slightly frustrating at times, but well worth the parking efforts..

How much does God give us what we believe we want... I found a prayer I wrote ages ago, asking God that I wouldn't get offered a position for a job that I deeply wanted at one stage, I wanted it, but I know now that the timing wasn't right... God knows best, and thank God  I didn't get the position. I believe we want things, but if we pray enough about it, God sneaks in with His own desire for our lives and changes our minds, or coordinates with us. for the better in the end. Above this little  scribbled prayer of mine is a reading "For the one whom God sent speaks the word of  God. He does not ration His gift of the spirit. John 3:34.
A few pages later in my little notebook, are my notes for that Job interview, points I wanted to make, and beside it I've drawn a picture.. well actually a logo. Now this was drawn way before I even considered living back in Nambour and work for a year especially in Hospitality again. While I was thinking about what I wanted to say in my interview, I drew a little logo (what I thought was a meaningless scribble) . I drew without meaning to, the Nambour RSL logo , which God blessed me, with a job there a few weeks later. I didn't want it, but now I am so grateful I worked there. God put an image in my head which I drew. Now there's something special about this, cause I was going to  quit my job, a day into it. But I didn't. A week later, I still felt uneasy about it, and was looking through my notebook, and saw the logo! It was a sign, from God, that I drew outta my imagination, so I wouldn't quit! AMAZING! Thanks Holy Spirit! Working at Nambour RSL was wonderful. So I guess the moral of this story, if it wasn't too confusing is, God works in many ways?? or maybe don't limit God, or something about desires.. now I'm confused... meh....... so the photo of the day is!

DAY 12

wow I feel so sad, that Christmas day is coming to an end. All that hustle and bustle, decorations and excitement now a sleepy memory. It didn't quite feel like Christmas, but what does Christmas feel like... I felt love, and even overwhelmed at one stage, and I guess if Christmas is about love, than I could feel Christmas. I truly believe that the way my family give is a real blessing, savouring everyones gifts, appreciating, even being more excited about giving than receiving.. the hugs, the tears, the anticipation as each opened our presents, it was beautiful.. I could feel a real presence of God in it all.. It was like He was enjoying the way we gave and loved, He warmed our hearts. And than there was the NERFS! and the panic as I tried avoiding being shot at...males, how can they enjoy being shot!!! or shooting inside the house... I'm always so stressed that someone will get hurt, or something will get broken, but it didn't. and they had fun! AHHH... that lasted a while, and then the food, oh wow dad makes the best gravy! and roast potatoes (don't tell mum) the table was decorated, as it traditionally is, and we cracked our crackers, and drank our cider, laughed and was merry.. and once everything was cleaned up, I slept! exhausted, while the others played bananaramas.. The rest of the afternoon and night was enjoyed by playing games, eating jelly and custard, and watching Sabrina the Teenage witch...and now well, all is done. And we will sleep, sweet dreams about the day past, and wake up to the hustle and bustle of the boxing day sales. Oh how blessed we are.